Happy Friday, friends 👋 I hope the month of May has been treating you well 😊
Today, I wanted to share my new piece that started off traditionally and ended up making the edits via Procreate. I really love capturing Betsy’s expression while holding a balloon 🎈
My husband asked me what was my obsession in drawing Betsy holding balloons 😅 The truth is, I was once afraid of balloons growing up. And clowns 🤡 I think it was because I saw Stephen King’s It movie that made me afraid of them while growing up 😟
Over time, I decided to grow out of that fear and finally embraced them. Perhaps by drawing Betsy holding a balloon symbolises my way of compromising my brain and learning to let go of my childhood fear.
I don’t know about you, but I’ve been feeling more down as of late. As May is coming to a close and on the topic of Mental Health Awareness, I wanted to share how I’ve been feeling.
To begin with, I’ve had some doubts on my ability to maintain my sanity while being a decent human being. There were some moments that I felt out of place and often question myself Why am I doing this? On top of working full time, I’ve had some moments where I just felt tired and giving up 😓 Sometimes, those panic attacks creep in and trying to ruin my groove. Often, I would have to take breaks in settling myself to the best of my ability.
It’s also not fun hearing my thoughts with phrases like:
You don’t deserve happiness.
Your coworkers think you’re weird and stupid.
You don’t have any friends because you’re a horrible person.
I’m surprised you’re a mom and wife with the way you are.
You’re fat and ugly.
Your family tolerates you but they secretly hate you.
…and the list goes on.
For me, the idea of “floating above the negativity” is my way of reassuring myself that I do have the ability in rising above from toxic people, thoughts and situations. Is it easy to do so? Not really. But, I do my best in keeping things in stride when proceeding to higher ground than where I was originally at in the first place. It’s a balancing act.
How do you rise above the negativity? 🤔 Would love to hear your thoughts 💭